My anxiety

has completely taken over my life. The scariest part is the “depersonalization” feeling when I feel like, holy shit, am I even really here? Or am I just flesh and bones? Leaving the house makes me nervous. Seeing my friends has become more of a chore than anything else. My doctor prescribed me medication but I am too scared to even take that. It feels as if my life is falling apart. I don’t know what to do next.