It Will Never Leave Me

cw: sexual assault. Last night I was having sex with my husband and I almost lost it. 

He wasn’t doing anything wrong or hurtful. But in the schematics of bed, pillows, & another person I got a little stuck and couldn’t move properly. I panicked and started to tell him because I knew it wasn’t really a big deal. 

But then he started finishing. And it took me back. Back to that moment when I had no control and was helpless. 

It will never leave me.